I was recently a guest on the “My Bad” podcast (check it out here)with Jon Harper (follow this guy on Twitterand check out hisEdWords blog, he is the real deal!) and he asked aboutmy new role as a featured blogger forBAM! Radio Networks: EdWords. He asked me if I would be as transparent with my posts on that platform as I am on my site. I had to think for a second and then I answered the question, with a resounding no. It was at the moment that I realized I must beeven more real and transparent than what I had been before.
Being a featured blogger for EdWordsis an honor. I understand that with an elevated platform, it becomes necessaryfor increased transparency. I will now be ableto reach even more people with my voice. I hope to use this increased degree of transparency to impact educators on a deeper level. Before I can do this, I need to increase my transparency with my staff and this happened last week.I have struggled, both personally and physically, for the last several weeks due to various reasons.
For starters, I injured my shoulder during my last Spartan Race (race recap here) and I have not been able to do much in terms of working out. For those who aren’t too familiar with me, I suffer from extreme ADHD and I rely heavily on my training for Spartan Races to balance myself out. After suffering this injury, I was thrust into a deep funk. I found myself depressedabout my physical condition and felt powerless. The only thing I could control was my eating and I became a bottomless pit that consumed anything and everything in sight. I could have easily worked on cardio and leg strengthening, but could not find any motivation to do so. I was numb. ***
Next, we found out that my wife, a bilingual elementary teacher, would not have her contract renewed because her district had to cut the program due to budget deficits. I lead a private, special education school so our family relies on her health benefits through the public school system. To make matters more interesting, she is 22 weeks pregnant with our second son and she is due at the beginning of October. She is showing and there is no way she will find a jobanywhere with the knowledge that she will be out on maternity leave.
Combine these issues with the demands of being a principal in a special education school, being a father to an amazing, inspiring, but very energetic 2.5 year old, beinga present and supportive pillar for my wife, and you can see how these weeks have been very difficult for me. If I can see this in myself, I know that others must also notice the differences in me. I had two choices, embrace it or ignore it.
This was an easy decision for me. I know that we all grow when we are open and honest with each other. I genuinely believe that every cloud does have a silver lining. My struggles gave me the perfect opportunity to showhonesty, openness, and transparency with my staff, so of course I embraced it.
During one of our daily morning staff meetings last week, I addressed my staff. They knew about my shoulder issues as well as my wife’s employment, but they did not how it was impacting me as a person. I started by apologizing if at any point during that time frame I had seemed inattentive, mentally absent, or just off. I explained how I have struggled and what that has done to me. I opened myself up and provided a closer glimpse into my mental, emotional, and physical being.
During this conversation with staff, I was able to look into the eyes of these people and see the love and care in their eyes. A lot of them could see a difference in me, so I watched as they nodded their heads and agreed withwhat I was saying. In that room, without saying a word, my staff provided me so much love, support, and motivation. They were there for me the way I have always tried being there for them. Knowing that made things seem much more manageable and possible to handle. My team has my back!
Look, we all struggle. Let’s face it, life is not easy. These struggles impact how we function on a daily basis, both personally and professionally. If we keep these difficulties to ourselves, nobody has any clue what we are going through. On the surface, we may showdisinterestand that we do not care. This is the last thing that you want the people you care about, including your colleagues, to think. When we talk about and share our difficulties, we involve those we care about the most. It can open doors that you didn’t even know existed. Most importantly, this sharing and increased vulnerability, shows others that you are human and that you struggle in the same way that they do. Be human, display transparency, be real, and most importantly, be yourself!
***I have since found out that my I have a partial tear in one of my shoulder ligaments. Physical therapy and natural healing is the prescription, which means no surgery! I’ve also been able to get back to training and working towards my race day form.